Unending Quest for Fulfillment: Everyday Cravings and Yearnings

Life is a journey of exploration and fulfillment. The more we live, the more we seek to live further and fuller. There is no end to the journey, only self-imposed limits.

A Personal Perspective

Harsh, thank you for this wonderful opportunity to share my thoughts. As an individual, my everyday journey revolves around two key questions: 'Who am I, truly?' and 'How much can I endure?' Beyond these, I strive for the satisfaction of rendering my services, whether it be through teaching or any other activity. My inner quest for understanding and fulfillment is ongoing.

Everyday Cravings

There are myriad things I crave almost every day:

A kiss from my first crush, A lecture from the professor who taught me in my first year of college, My first cigarette (sadly, it can only be smoked once), A view of the terrace from my first crush's house, A feeling of absolute loneliness, A hug from my first year maths professor, Recollections of my school days and friends, The slight bend in the pinky finger of my first crush, A look on her face when she used to say 'seriously', The scenic view of evening in Varanasi from the Ganges River, 10 hours of uninterrupted sleep, Satisfying intimacy.

Each of these cravings stem from personal experiences and emotions that shape my daily life. They are the tangible reminders of past moments and hopes for the future.

A Craving for Comfort: Chocolate

Chocolate is the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning. This sweet indulgence serves as a daily reminder of pleasure and comfort. My craving for whip cream is another example of a simple yet deeply ingrained desire. I consume a can of whip cream daily, which might seem excessive, but it's a part of my routine that brings joy. Over time, this habit has led me to restrict the weekly amount of cans I buy to maintain a healthier balance.

A Search for Inner Peace

On another note, my everyday desires extend beyond physical and emotional needs. I crave freedom, a basic but profound desire for liberation:

Freedom from judgment based on my skin color, Freedom from corrupt world leaders and politicians, Freedom from negativity that can disrupt my inner peace.

Ultimately, I seek freedom from anything that detracts from my wellbeing and inner peace.

Evolving Aspirations

My daily aspirations extend to more profound concerns, such as:

Seeking the safety and well-being of my son, Desiring to see my sister forgive me and move forward, Ensuring I have the energy to work and take care of myself, Overcoming the loneliness when surrounded by a family that does not fully love me.

These are the underlying emotions and desires that drive my everyday actions and thoughts. The quest for meaningful existence and fulfillment is an ongoing process.

Life is a journey where every moment is precious. Cravings and yearnings are the compass that guide us through the complexities of existence. May we all strive for a life filled with fulfillment, peace, and a sense of purpose.